I dont know if you noticed, but I've been trying not to post anything deliberately depressing. Being very depressed is the reason for my absence. It's really hard to not be depressing when you yourself are depressed.
Being depressed makes me look back on my life. Lately, I've been thinking about what happened with Alani. I know I've mentioned her at least once or twice so far, maybe some other time I'll tell you the whole story. But I digress.
A long time ago I was reading, what, even then, was a really old blog post of a friend of mine. In it she said something along the lines of people getting lost in each other and loosing themselves in the process. She said somewhere along the line "Adam" and "Sally" becomes "Adam and Sally," and one can't think about what life would be like without the other. At first I thought she was just being distant, until recently. Mainly because I'm pretty sure that's what happened between me and Alani. I wanted soo much to be a part of something, I became a part of her.
One-sidedly or not, I will probably never know.
